WE GOT A DATE!!!!

So the day has finally come….. we got a date for closing!  WOOOOHOOO.  One week from TOMORROW!!!!!!  YAY!!!!!  I can’t freaking wait!  Let the packing begin. 

 

So, on another note.  I get to start trying out more and more recipes from Pinterest as well as DIY stuff.  I’m going to try to post how they go on here!  It should be fun! 

 

To start off with, I tried this recipe I found on Pinterest…. http://www.plainchicken.com/2012/01/slow-cooker-cream-cheese-chicken-chili.html It was amazing.  It has hardly any spices in it but it doesn’t come out bland!  It was so quick and easy to make!  LOVED IT.  Definitely a winner in our house!

Today was crappy…..

Pun intended.  LOL.  Charli went down for a nap and slept a LOONG time…. when she got up, I went to get her.  Well for some reason she sometimes won’t get out of her crib.  She wants to sit and play.  So today I said OK Mommy will go back downstairs, you let me know when you want out.  So I went downstairs and let her hang out in her crib.  About a half hour later my mom gets home and is like.. Umm where’s Charli.  So I said maybe you can get her out… we walk upstairs and are assaulted by the stench… (ok maybe slightly dramatic…) and walk into her room only to find her bed covered in crap.  The sheets, the pillow pet, her blanket and her beloved Violet.  How do you clean something like Violet and not be grossed out every time you see it again…. I’ll get back to you on that.  So anyways, my mother tried to duck out… nice try.  LOL.  We got the bath going and ended up spraying her off.  She started to have more of a diaper rash this time so we put more cream on it.  Cleaning up wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be… it was pretty contained (or soaked in I guess).  Got the laundry started and we went ahead for our walk as planned.  After we got home, Charli got rice for dinner and a banana.  This shit (pun intended) needs to stop!  So it happens again and when I go to change her, you would think I was murdering her.  Well her cute little tushy was practically covered in a blood red rash.  My poor baby.  Tomorrow I won’t be using wipes and just using a warm washcloth.  Besides the diapers sucking and being near out of rash cream ( same tube since birth…) I had to make an emergency trip to Walmart for new diapers (hopefully they contain more) that move when she moves and with her… not stay in one place while she moves in another!  I got Charli some more bananas, some banana cookies, banana chips and another kind of diaper rash cream.  Tomorrow I’ll be calling the dr.  It’s been a week and a half of two different (I think) viruses and my poor kiddo’s body deserves a rest. 

 

On one hand I can’t complain about how pathetic Charli has been lately.  By pathetic I mean cuddly and clingy.  It’s gotten really bad though.  All she wants to do is sit on my lap or have me hold her.  She is constantly curling up on my shoulder too.  I don’t say it’s bad as in I’m sick of it… I say it’s bad as in it means something is really going on for her to be like this.  I love the cuddling but want my baby girl to feel better.  Hopefully we can get some answers tomorrow!  Hopefully next week we can go back to living our lives… besides life is about to get SUPER crazy.  Softball starts in one week from today and HOPEFULLY tomorrow (or early next week) we get a closing date for our house!

 

I’d leave you with some pictures… but I’m gonna go out on a limb and say you probably don’t want any of the pictures I took today (Aaron misses out on this shit… BAHAHA…. so I figure even stuff like this, deserves pictures for him!!!)

Sick to death…..

Ok ok the title is a LITTLE dramatic.  Our house has had a stomach bug since Valentine’s Day.  It all started with Charli of all people   We are thinking she got it from someone in MOPS on Monday!  Tuesday she was overly cuddly and just wanting to chill and cling to me.  As in she wanted me to carry her EVERYWHERE and she would curl into me and lay her head on my shoulder.  That doesn’t happen unless my little bug is sick or tired.  We ended up going to my in laws for dinner (like every Tuesday) and everything seemed normal with her besides the cuddling.  She ate dinner like normal (breakfast for dinner YUM) and still seemed fine.  Probably an hour after dinner, as we were getting things together to go home, she puked (on the heating vent no less..EWW).  Everyone insisted it was because dinner didn’t sit.  I knew something was up.  I was worried.  Well as soon as we got her cleaned up (who am I kidding… my MIL cleaned her up!) we got her in the car and on the road we went.  They only live about ten minutes away… well not even halfway home… EXORCISM style puking going on in the backseat.  I felt sooooooooo bad for her.  There was no stopping it, there was no where for it to go since it was coming so fast and so much, we were in the car and she kept half inhaling/choking on it.  I was yelling at Aaron to pull over because she was choking.  We got pulled over and HA to anyone who makes fun of me for being over prepared… I had EVERYTHING in the car we needed to clean her up and even clean up the car.  We actually got just about all of it cleaned up… stripped her down and covered her in blankets.  Once we got home, we cleaned her off a little bit more and BLAH she threw up ON ME.  This time though it was just liquid.  Pooooor kiddo.  I was freaking out by this point.  My poor baby hadn’t ever been sick like this before.  She has actually been extremely healthy since birth!  (BTW sooooo thankful for that) Sleeping arrangements became an issue that night… I just kept imagining her suffocating on her puke in the night.  So ultimately Aaron ended up sleeping on the recliner in her room and I slept in our bed with the monitor on all the way high so if she did throw up again I could at least run in there and help out.  She only got sick 2 more times in bed thankfully.  The next morning she was so tired and clingy and just blah.  Thankfully, no more throwing up and nothing from the other end!  Then started all the fun… I took Aaron to work Thursday morning and went from DCA to IAD to get my mom who had been out on business.  On the way home my mom asked what we wanted for lunch… Charli still wasn’t eating normal so it was just my mom and I.  My first clue should have been that I flat out said I wasn’t feeling Chik Fil A at all….. we ended up getting Firehouse… it took me 2 hours to eat it. Then it slammed me hard… I felt like someone had drilled into my joints and stuck expanders in them.  I had a slight fever and was just beyond tired.  I had a coaches meeting that night and afterwards I threw up a few times and asked my mom to watch Charli so I could go to bed.  Thankfully she has no problem with that.  Then later that night when I woke up, I begged my mom to stay home on Friday so she could watch Charli.  I couldn’t begin to figure out how I was going to take care of her when I was so sick.  The last time I caught a stomach bug I was in FIFTH grade…. yea… Welll…. she didn’t stay home… an hour after Charli and I got up… I called my mom crying.  I was a mess.  She said she’d come home for lunch lol.  Gotta love Mom’s!  Long story short… I survived (barely I swear…) then my mom got it!  Of course I took as good of care of her as I could and keep Charli away from her… then Saturday night I had to go get Aaron from work.  He said he’d had some symptoms of said stomach bug (I’m sure you can figure them out since I’m not mentioning puking…) so I was a little worried.  We were supposed to go to Jersey for Kelly’s baby shower on Sunday!  Well, we didn’t make it to Jerz.  Aaron ended up sleeping most of the day (lucky guy… he barely got sick!) on Sunday and now today on Monday… all is well.  My Dad doesn’t feel well today though…. Hopefully it doesn’t go back through the house! 

 

A FAMILY THAT GETS SICK TOGETHER STAYS TOGETHER…. BLAHHHH.

 

Now that I have my first real kid sickness under my belt as a Mom… I hope it doesn’t happen again.. Yea Yea I know… it will….. maybe I’ll get lucky like my mom and not have pukey kids!  We just never caught things like that!  Even if my Dad had it in the house! 

 

Hopefully this isn’t too TMI

Just keep running……

So, got new running shoes.  WOOHOO.  Used them once so far to actually run.  Did two workouts with them but only one involved running.  I haven’t done any workouts since Thursday…. Friday and Saturday I just literally ran out of time.  So today I am planning on doubling up.  One of my running workouts with a half an hour of walking following it.  If I can get my nice warm butt out of the house.  Its practically in the single digits today and WINDY.  NOT FUN. 

Well I started this post HOURS ago.  I ended up not working out today.  I started to feel feverish and dizzy.  So I decided I would be better off not running.  I’d rather not pass out or get sick at the gym.  I ended up taking a 2 hour nap and then going to get Aaron from the airport. 

 

I will be working out like triple time tomorrow. We got a jogging stroller from a friend and need to test it out… too bad that part won’t happen for a while as it’s FREEZING this week!  Until I can figure out what brand this stroller is and how to get some accessories for it such as a wind blocker/warm thing. 

 

Hopefully we find out this week about closing.  That is basically all we are waiting on now.  We want our own place so bad its ridiculous.  AHHHHH. 

 

Ok, I have MOPS in the morning and then working out so I better get my butt in bed since I didn’t feel too hot today.

Let’s do this :)

So, it’s official.  Aaron and I are signed up for a 5k.  AHHHHHH.  We are doing the Cupcake Run on April 15th!  YAY.  After talking to a friend about losing baby weight and how hard it can be to get motivated… I decided I needed to do something drastic.  Sign my fat ass up for a 5k.  Can’t take it back now!  NONREFUNDABLE!  My friend had introduced me to this program to get you running in 2 months called Couch25k.  Well, the race is in 67 days from today.  This program will have me finishing it like the day OF the race.  Talk about being nuts!  I am so excited for it though.  We started the program today… Aaron had no problem finishing todays workout… I on the other hand struggled.  I couldn’t breathe and we didn’t know where my inhaler was so I wasn’t going to push myself into a full fledged asthma attack.  As it was, until we found my inhaler 10 hours later… my chest was still super tight and I was wheezing.  So now that 2 inhalers have been located… I can knock myself out on Thursday… Week1Day2.  This should be interesting.  So we had to go get ourselves good supportive running shoes today.  We got fitted for them!  Woohoo.  The poor guy probably thinks I am a nutso LOL.  Also, a friend of mine is giving us a free jogging stroller.  We are so blessed!  I woke up this morning with a new view on everything (the all natural sleep aid may have helped too LOL). 

 

Hopefully this is the last month that we live with my parents… so far it’s not looking too hot for that since we still haven’t heard ANYTHING about closing.  AHHH.  So frustrating.

Blessings….

Sometimes you just have to sit back and count your blessings.  Make your chat with God a little bit different that day.  Every day I chat with the Big Guy. It’s not something I grew up doing… but as I have grown up, I have learned to rely more on Him and talk to Him more often and as he is a friend so to speak.  I have a running convo going on with Him regularly since we found out I was pregnant with Charli bug.  When Aaron and I had started talking kids… we both decided we wanted our kids to know God.  To be comfortable with him.  That meant I had to become more comfortable with him.  I am still working on it.  Privately, I have NO problem.  Publicly, I struggle.  It is not a secret that I believe in God.  It is not a secret that I trust in Him.  Where I struggle is actually talking to others about God.  Some people can just come out and be like “yea, last night was really rough but I talked to God and he let me know it was going to be all ok and that he had a reason for everything”… I can’t do that yet.  I don’t know why, but I can’t… not yet.  I am trying to work on that. 

 

So there is a reason for that little paragraph.  Lately, life has just flat out sucked.  To a point.  Every aspect of my life has kinda sucked except for Charli.  Every day I am able to put a smile on my face and mean it.  Charli just has a way to be able to make me smile and laugh.  She is hilarious and quite the nutcase!  I love it!  Lately she is getting more and more adventurous (and oblivious).  So yesterday was quite the special day… we went to DCA to visit Aaron for the day.  The drive down wasn’t bad at all.  We picked Aaron up at the hotel and he drove us to Pentagon City Mall to park and take the Metro into DC.  I am NOT a fan of the Metro in any way.  They skeeve me out, freak me out and just BLECH.  Well we got on and were on our way… Charli loved it… I had a couple little anxiety attacks and tears followed. 

                                        

We fairly quickly got to the Smithsonian stop.  We went straight to the National Mall for some pictures (I may be obsessed with pictures)

                      

We were planning on going to the Air and Space Museum… we figured Charli would love it.  Let me start by saying she hadn’t napped on the way down so a nap wasn’t going to happen unless she fell asleep in the stroller…. bahahaha fuuuunnnny.  Definitely didn’t happen.  But she was fairly entertained so it worked out.  We basically let her do anything she wanted as to fend off a temper tantrum.  So we spent a couple hours there and then decided to head back and get dinner at Pentagon Row.  We were so stupid getting on the metro at 430-5… it was packed.  But somehow I managed to not have an anxiety attack… I was petrified that we wouldn’t be able to get off at our stop though.  It wasn’t an issue thankfully.  So on to the fun part… we tried to go to an Irish Pub but again… wrong time.  Happy Hour=crazy.  We went to Chammps!  Food was awesome.  Charli decided to all out choke.  I mean like stopped breathing-look of absolute fear on her face.  I grabbed her out of her high chair and just as I was going to lean her forward she got it out.  THANK GOD.  So my anxiety was just about to completely bubble over the top.  (This is where the whole first paragraph of this comes into play).  I started to pray REALLY hard for God to bring me some calm.  I needed Him to relax me enough to eat and enjoy my family time.  So we finished up dinner and went out to the promenade to hang out.  Charli say and watched the ice skating rink and we followed/watched her.  She was so cute just exploring and having freedom.  So moving on… Aaron was sitting on the concrete bench they have surrounding the landscaping… I was sitting on the concrete bench surrounding the fountain (wasn’t on).  Charli was going in between us just being silly.  So one time she goes to head towards me.. she starts running… she ends up TRIPPING and going mouth first into the concrete bench with her mouth open.  Momma mode stepped in and I grabbed her up so fast after she slammed her mouth into the concrete.  I freaked and just held her as she screamed.  I gave her a second and pulled her back from me so we could survey the damage…. considering how bad it was and how HORRIBlE it sounded, I figured we’d end up in the ER and have broken/missing teeth and a gorefest.  Nope.  She barely had a tiny cut on her lip… a scrape really.  A very little bit of blood.  Aaron took her from me so I could check her out more and he could calm her some more (I was starting to completely lose it).  I immediately asked God… um for real… I asked for CALM not chaos.  I figure he is doing this to test me in some way.  Use me as a pawn.. my marriage.. but not Charli.  Anyways.  So I eventually took her back and wouldn’t let her go.  I want to put my kid in a bubble!  AHHHHHH.  This running conversation with God is going to be a long long long one   Specially since today she tried to do gymnastics OFF the recliner and into the piano later and then almost fly off the couch backwards… BUBBLE!

All in all.  No matter what is going on… I wouldn’t change anything just because I wouldn’t have the best blessing ever… Charli.  I was put on this earth to be her mother.  That is something I truly feel in my heart.

It feels like it is all closing in on me….

I am so sick of this feeling.  Like everything is just going to crush me.  Fall in on me.  Consume me.  Nothing seems to work.  Talking, getting away, reading, getting lost in the computer…NOTHING.  I just want things back to the way they were.  At this current moment I don’t see how that will ever happen. 

My frustration with Charli is just hitting an all time high.  95% of the time everything is perfect and great with her.  But her temper tantrums are reserved for me… her fussiness is reserved for me… her talking is reserved for EVERYONE ELSE.  She won’t talk for me…. if I try to make her talk and push her to do it… she walks away from me.  Anyone else, she will usually say it at least once.  It is so frustrating.  But I do at least know it is because she is with me all the time and that she feels she doesn’t have to perform for me.  At least my child is smart enough to know she doesn’t have to perform for me in order for me to still love her.  I have done something right there at least.  I am starting to kind of feel like teaching her some baby signs, while it does lessen her frustration at not being able to communicate some, that she is just going to rely on that solely right now.  She is so quiet!  It is almost like my child is a mute.  How did I of all people birth a mute LOL.  No matter everything going on with her and her frustrations and not talking… I love this kid more than life.  I will do anything for her.  I love watching her grow and change and seeing her cute little faces.  I really should do a collage and call it the Many Faces of Charli…. she is a nut. 

I read this book called Harvesting the Heart by Jodi Piccoult this weekend.  I figured reading some books on marriage and life and it all falling apart, would help me.  It didn’t.  It made things worse I think.  I can sum it all up in one word how my life is right now.  BLECH.  AHHHHHH. 

Here are a couple pics from our trip to NY

We got over a foot of snow while we were there!