I hate being the one who is constantly complaining and always upset. Right now, I don't know how to get out of it. I have lost faith. I have days where I am ok. Days where I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. And then something happens.
Yesterday was bad. It's always worse when Charli isn't around. I am able to let myself go. Cry. Be angry. Do nothing. Sulk. When she is around. I can't do that. It's not good for her to see and be around.
Today is better. Charli is here. I can't be like this though. Maybe that is why I don't ever do anything with out her. That isn't healthy. AHHHH. And on top of that, this month Aaron is barely home. That makes it harder too.
I need to figure out how to relax. Chill. Get through this. Less stress.
I don't want to be the depressing person no one wants to be around. My mom used to call me her sunshine. People used to love being around me. Now, no one wants to be around me!
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