Don't stop believin'.....: December 2011

So this month has just been all up and down.... we only have a couple more days left... which means I think it will end on a good note :)

Since last post: I smashed Charli's finger in a door. We had her developmental evaluation. I sewed my first 3 pairs of pants. We got approval from both banks on a house. Waiting on closing. We had Christmas. Our 3rd since we moved back from TX. Charli has started horrible tantrum throwing. Charli has started wanting most anyone but me unless I am her only option.

So, Charli's finger. I felt like I deserved the worst mother of the year award. I was shutting my mothers door and didn't see that Charli had her hand in the hing area. I caught her pinky in the door BAD. I ran her downstairs to Aaron and as soon as I handed her to him I was started to get hysterical as she started to cry. I then realized she was bleeding and I just lost it. I was of no use to her. I couldn't do anything. I went nuts. I was sobbing along with her. As she started crying harder and harder and louder, I got worse too. I ended up crying up to my mom to come help Aaron. You would have thought someone died with how I was acting. My Mom and Aaron kinda just laughed at me and my mom told him to take care of his baby and she would take care of her baby. I was a mess. I couldn't believe I had hurt my baby so badly. How could I have accidentally done anything to her like that. I was inconsolable. And then I would get upset because I was so upset and unable to take care of her. Oh it was a horrible never ending cycle. I am thankful Aaron and my Mom were there! She bled and bled and bled but once she stopped bleeding, she was all ok. She babied it for a couple days but she was fine. I on the other hand... traumatized for life. I am so glad she will have no memory of it! Now to dig deep and figure out how I am going to handle things like that when I'm alone!!!!

Charli still isn't talking. So we had her developmental scan and she came out way advanced. Except in talking. She ended up qualifying for speech therapy through the county. THankfully the person who will be handling her therapy is a friend from high school. We start on January 9th. We started some baby sign to bridge the gap until she is talking... she has picked it up quickly.

Christmas was awesome. Charli was way more into it than I ever thought she would be at this age. She was so adorable and crazy and into everything. It made everything amazing just to watch her opening gifts and getting so excited about everything. The looks on her face were just priceless. I truly thought we had at least another year before she would be so excited about it. It was precious. Our beautiful baby girl is getting so grown up!